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  • DPS posted an update 2 months ago

    Ok so, I’m reaching out to someone, or multiple people… Since the 2 people I was originally talking to have disappeared on me. Is there anyone here that would be willing to become a texting or calling buddy? I’ve found that actually speaking with someone keeps my mind occupied, and off of suicide and methm maybe we could even get a couple of…[Read more]

    • Feel free to message me if you want someone to talk to about it. I’ve been in those very low, depressed states many times

    • I pm’d u bud. Msg me back when u can ❤

  • DPS posted an update 2 months, 1 week ago

    Back from a binge. Hello all ✌️

    • Speed?

      • Yeah…

        • Ah shit. I did the same thing last week. I feel your pain dude. Eat lots of food, drink lots of water… I got wasted drunk last Wednesday and ended up eating like 2 Benzedrex inhalers and was tweaking for a few days. Then I decided I really needed to stop, because it is just wrecking my life

          • Benzedrex inhalers? Glad to hear that you decided to stop….

            • Lol. Yeah….. I started abusing them a couple months ago; really started after I found a bag of meth in my local grocery store parking lot. Then I was back on the speed train. Took benzedrex for the first time a few months ago and it triggered the speed demons in my brain or whatever. So, I’ve been abusing it the past couple months because I’ve…[Read more]

  • DPS posted an update 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    If anyone needs someone to talk to, hit me up. I’ll be up and here. For real, anything at all….

  • DPS posted an update 2 months, 2 weeks ago

    “And it’s been awhile
    Since I could say
    That I wasn’t addicted
    It’s been awhile
    Since I could say
    I loved myself as well
    And it’s been awhile
    Since I’ve gone and
    Fucked things up
    Just like I always do
    And it’s been awhile
    But all that shit
    Seems to disappear
    When I’m with you…”

  • DPS posted an update 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    I recognize that I have a problem with the drugs I use, and that it is an issue for most people in my life, which in turn makes it bad for me because they express those concerns to me and I get pissed at the repetitiveness of it all.
    But I can’t get past the not actually wanting to stop, because I feel like if everyone else around me would…[Read more]

  • DPS posted an update 2 months, 3 weeks ago

    Good morning everyone 🖖
    I hope everyone is doing well and I hope that good things find you….

  • DPS posted an update 3 months ago

    Another night, sleepless.

    • Well.. Thats kinda part of it my friend.. Gotta let it go to break the cycle :'(

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    • DPS replied 3 months ago

      A sober me….

      • if you’re feelin yourself brother, feel it! sobriety, how i long for thee…i’ll get there soon. i’m glad that you are here with us bro. i support you.

  • DPS posted an update 3 months ago

    Damn, here I go again. Seems I immediately regret getting high, as soon as I do it again.
    Too bad I don’t regret it before I forget it, it would help SO much more…

  • DPS posted an update in the group Group logo of Secret AddictSecret Addict 3 months ago

    In the beginning it was like that for me, and even right now there’s only a select few that know Ive relapsed again.

    • I’m so happy to know I’m not the only one. So sorry to hear that you relapsed 🙁 Are you planning on getting sober again? How long did you have the secret?

      • DPS replied 3 months ago

        The end goal is to eventually be sober, and stay sober… But I always end up f*****g that up 😞. Definitely would prefer sobriety over this hell. The only benefit from dope is the sexual aspect.
        But in the beginning, I kept my tweaker secret for YEARS

        • It definitely can be hell at times. Especially keeping it such a secret. Sometimes I just yearn for someone to know but I have no clue why…how many years did you keep it a secret? How were you able to keep it one? I never experienced the sexual aspects that people always talk about. It’s weird

  • DPS posted an update 3 months ago

    ✌️

  • DPS posted an update 3 months, 1 week ago

    Day 3. Still no sleep. I keep hacking, like there’s something in my throat that I just can’t seem to get.
    When the hell will I wake up and actually believe that I don’t want to do this anymore? When will I finally do what’s best for me?
    🤔

  • DPS posted an update 3 months, 1 week ago

    Still awake, headache is coming on. Man I hate this, but I love it at the same time. I completely understand and feel what CG said about how it has been so long since he had used meth, but to this day get can’t accept the fact that he will never use it again… In a way, that’s a big part of my argument in my head, Everytime I get sober for a…[Read more]

  • DPS posted an update 3 months, 1 week ago

    So I’ve been thinking: one for SURE common denominator with my meth use, is that I always have the thought of “getting my sex drive going”. Maybe that’s something I should work on… IDK. I just know that when I’m not high, my libido is pretty much zilch….

  • DPS posted an update 3 months, 1 week ago

    Good evening everyone. The app hasn’t been working for me, so I’m gonna try a web browser. Hope this works ✌️

  • DPS posted an update in the group Group logo of MethamphetamineMethamphetamine 3 months, 2 weeks ago

    New here, and struggling like crazy. Just thought I’d come and do something else that may help me finally not want to do this anymore.
    Hi all ✌️

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