I go through periods of soberity last time was 5 months and after my last slip it has been 8 days. I’ve been going to job interviews going to the gym. I find myself wishing I could go away for 2 weeks, 1 week to use and the other to recover and no one finds out about it. I got internally angry and frustrated that I have a job interview tomorrow as I just wanted to use. A posting on this website calmed me down really helped me see the bigger picture for the moment. My therapist reminded me that it gets easier too especially by day 10. And I have to say to myself “be grateful your not a mess, be grateful you have energy, be grateful your skin is glowing and your eyes have that I’m healthy twinkle”.