• Alchy Sid posted an update in the group Group logo of ALCOHOLALCOHOL 3 days ago

    I’m new here just registered. I have a really bad drinking problem, I drink every day. Rarely I can manage to barely get through a day without drinking, but it’s really starting to scare me. I’m afraid I’m going to end up in jail or hurt myself, or worse, someone else if I don’t stop. I’m that guy that gets really crazy on alcohol and I have some kind of insane reaction to it. I can’t stop drinking usually until I black out, but I frequently end up doing really stupid things- like ending up at bars and getting thrown out. I lose control. I also don’t like to take stimulants as I used to abuse them in the past and had very bad psychosis from amphetamines, but lately I end up getting high when I’m really drunk and it really sucks going through the crash and the withdrawals from stupid drunken mistakes. I am also addicted to opiates but my main concern right now is the alcohol, because I don’t want to end up in jail. I’ve already had my three strikes, got arrested a couple times before for alcohol related problems… I really want to quit drinking now, but it’s so difficult and I have so much damn anxiety when I try to quit, that I end up just giving in to drinking so that I can relax and fall asleep at night. If I just stayed home all the time when I drink I wouldn’t be as worried, but when I get too drunk I wander out into the world and bad things happen. So, I’ve fully realized I really need to quit drining, and as of today I am trying to stay off of it. I can ween myself off the opiates, I haven’t been taking too much… but the alcohol is really screwing up my life and has already screwed up so many aspect of my life the past 8 or 9 years. I don’t really know who else to talk to about it at this point. I might try an AA meeting but I’m a pretty shy and nervous guy without the alcohol. Any advice? Can ayone relate to my situation here?