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  • CG Kid posted an update 6 hours, 28 minutes ago

    I’m flying to LA to be on LAHWF “Chatting with” 🤗

  • Update: Girl I was talking to officially just wants a physical relationship.. I want a mental and emotional connection..
    I told her how I felt about her and she had Nothing to say.. literally nothing no emotions towards me.. I told her I just want to be friends because I truly appreciate her friendship. We can only be friends and I gave up on…[Read more]

    • As the case with many these days, to me it sounds like she simply isnt the right girl for you, there are many fish in the sea, as redundant as that is it is the truth. I think you are looking for someone you needs to pocess more mental maturity, looking for true love isnt easy.

  • MOZZ posted an update 18 hours, 26 minutes ago

    Sup beautiful souls?
    Sorry it’s been a week since an update. Life’s been super fast since I left treatment 2 weeks ago.
    I’ve moved in with 2 others in recovery, got a bedroom set, bought a car with outrageous D.U.I. insurance. I’m still setting things up but it’s all working out.
    I’m trying to hit 3 meetings a week and it’s been working. I…[Read more]

  • simplypopple posted an update in the group Group logo of OpioidsOpioids 20 hours, 22 minutes ago

    I’m currently a high functioning heroin addict. I have a ritual: when I wake up, I blow my nose, brush my teeth, make my lunch for work & then rail my line. I’m usually good until lunch, and then just go crazy when I’m finally home.

    I let it get out of hand really quick… at first it was just on weekends, then I noticed I could work like crazy…[Read more]

    • only thing I can give is what I did. I’ve tried weaning off. Tried methadone, suboxone, Ayahausca, fucking ghb.
      I had to lock myself away and go to long term treatment. I maintain by recovery meetings and step work now.
      I feel ya though man. I couldn’t work without it either

    • I dont have nearly as important of a job but I dealt with the same issue because the first time around when I went cold Turkey and did a 28 day program with another 2 months off work I just couldn’t get the motivation to get back up and go to work so the second time around I took the suboxone route and it’s been working pretty well, there’s no…[Read more]

      • I really don’t want to be on suboxone. I can see myself getting 2 8mg pills for the withdrawals, but to be on them regularly? doesn’t seem any better than dope really, besides subs being cheaper if I got a script.

        so if I go cold turkey, when should withdrawals be peaking? I’m thinking i stop on a Thursday & just go thru with it. I can handle…[Read more]

        • I mean I’ve been on them for a while but I’m slowly but steadily lowering my dose, started at a measly 4mg and down to 2mg right now, some people even taper as quickly as a month but I can understand the fear of ending up like a lot of other people who are on it the rest of their lives but if you’d like to go cold Turkey I’ll try to help as much I…[Read more]

          • Also for me the hardest part of the withdrawals was about 10 days but some people feel symptoms for weeks or even months, it really depends on the person.

            • Also feel free to message me if you need, I’m pretty busy sometimes but if you decide you need someone to ask questions or just talk to while you’re going through the process I’ll do my best to respond

          • The only reason I don’t want suboxone is because my brother is on them & he can’t function without them now too. I’m not knocking anyone who uses them to treat dope addiction.

            As far as working, if symptoms peak around day 3 & 4 i should be good by Monday. I have Xanax to help me sleep, and kratom for the rest of the symptoms. I’ll also be…[Read more]

            • Glad to help 🙂 benzos unfortunately didn’t help me sleep when I went through the process but maybe they’ll work for you, if you could find actual sleeping pills they might be more beneficial, like zopiclone or something similar, the weed will probably help though

            • Going cold Turkey is definitely better in the long run though, I’m finding suboxone withdrawals to actually be worse than those of the opioids I was previously on in some ways, probably due to the long half life kratom will also be a life saver and much easier to come off of than any other opioid

            • I guess the first thing I should’ve asked though actually was, you don’t by law get a certain percentage of vacation time where you are?

  • Fucked up need someone to talk to while I’m rolling cuz I feel a Lil uncomfortable

  • I’m sorry @philip. You have a good thing here. I’m just fucking pissed

  • Hey guys… my family @mishell, @philip. Got something important to me to post. You’ve never seen hurt the way I’m hurting now. Everyone on here that’s an addict, fuck you. Y’all are assholes. Pieces of shit actually. You hurt people like me that are good . You make people like me lose shit. Suffer.

    You selfish mother fuckers. Fucking heartless

    • What’s going on brother?

      • I’m sorry. I had to vent man. I apologize to everyone here. Amy is on the streets back at home and any money I send her, she uses it on meth and crap. I’m stuck. I thought her time in that rehab would help but it didn’t. And I’m just pissed off.

        You do everything for someone and it doesn’t change them. And they don’t change themselves.…[Read more]

        • I understand you need to get it off your heart. And respect that you are hurt. Feel free to send me a message and call me everything that comes to mind. I accept that I deserve it. But please don’t trow everyone on the same side. I had talks with people here who really try to change. Who work so much harder than I can even imagion . But change…[Read more]

        • That was really rude.

    • sorry for your pain man. We don’t see what we put the ones we love through until we get sober. After seeing it that made me want to die. We are selfish motherfuckers but today I don’t want to be and tomorrow I will make that commitment again.
      much love man

  • Jose567 posted an update 2 days, 2 hours ago

    So, about 10 months ago I met some new friends in school, and I also met this girl, I tried everything to get her to like me but nothing worked, it triggered a small depression and those new friends I made introduced me to cocaine, I tried it and it was like I could do anything, my confidence and self esteem sky rocketed, at first I started small,…[Read more]

    • That’s almost how I started dude. The cocaine made my anxiety and panic attacks worse so trust i feel you. But don’t worry, you’re brain isn’t really damaged I’m pretty sure. Mine isn’t and my use was even heavier. I’ve heard that it takes a minute for your brain to get back to normal after you quit though. At least that’s what I’ve heard.

    • I feel you man. I started using cocaine all the time when I got an inheritance to afford it. Spent about 40k in 18 months on it. I had the same usage the whole time, basically 1g a week to myself. I still get it when I can afford it, but I’m trying to not want it when the urge arises, by thinking slowly and calmly. Training myself to link the…[Read more]

    • @jose567 this is an experience many suffering from addiction go through, you’re not alone. You will go through acute and post-acute withdrawal syndrome, I wouldn’t beat yourself up with the idea your permanently brain damaged but at the same time give weight to your age and the fact these drugs will cause more damage than in an adult. Are you…[Read more]

    • @philip I realized that at my age the best idea would be to stay sober and make sure my body and mind fully developed, I smoked weed for the first part of coke withdrawals and it gave me panic attacks and a mild case of depersonalization, and I also tripped shrooms twice but the first time I almost put a bullet in my head because how terrible it…[Read more]

    • Hey dude your not alone, I’m only 18 and went through the whole cocaine b.s..

  • I had a dream that smoked weed (the usual but im out right now and dying) and that I did heroin again 😬 Now I can’t stop thinking about either one and I have to go to work. I rarely ever go to work sober so this is gonna be a rough day 😑

    • I had those for such a long time, eventually I just downplayed them – they are just dreams. It’s easier said than done but after a year of facing them regularly I stopped thinking about them throughout my day.

    • When I decided I was going to start smoking weed it was because of a dream I had where I felt happy and in real life padt experiences I did not like marijuana because i had similiar experiences to CG Kid. Real powerful and confusing. So if you look at it I should have never listened to my dream. It was just the thought that made me happy in the…[Read more]

    • It ended up being a really good day actually. It was so odd 😂

  • Tiggerlily8969 posted an update in the group Group logo of MethamphetamineMethamphetamine 2 days, 8 hours ago

    Good morning, so I am a new user & have alot of unanswered questions or just unclear answers since no one in my circles know of my new hobby. Any “vets” or long term/experienced users that wouldnt mind helping me out with info?

    • Sure, what kind of info are you looking for?

      • How ironic lol, I actually did try reaching out to you thru text after finding your youtube vids, but never received any response?

        • Ya I get 200 a day and occasionally I miss a few

          • Lol oh wow yea i can definitely imagine how crazy that is. But i had started using just recently in March, to help with a medical issue involving my weight. I am fully aware of the amount i intake, how often, etc. I keep log of it so that i know when or if im getting toi deep or too carried away. (Tryin to be smart about it) lol my concern is that…[Read more]

          • Now i dont smoke or drink or do anything else. I dint see the point since i found out due to my thyroid condition, i have super high tolerance to drinking. I have done a mix of beer’s, shots, mixed drinks all withing minutes & am never phased by it really. Other then feeling warm i dont metabolize or absorb alot of things like everyone else, which…[Read more]

            • It sounds like you’re developing a physical dependency. In the case with alcohol, it requires hospitalization. Have you tried abstaining from all substances? If not, do you find the idea of abstinence difficult? If you have abstained from using, what was the result?

          • I rarely am on anything. Yes because i dint want to develop an addiction where i wasnt in control of it. I make myself go completely clean for 7 days every 3wks. So 1 wk of each month i dont touch it, do it, i dont even think about it really. So no its never been hard for me to just stop doing it. I make a note if i start craving or thinking about…[Read more]

  • Anxiession posted an update 2 days, 23 hours ago

    Addicted to a girl who still breaks my heart which led to coping with Marijuana when suffering alone till a year goes by then I meet Adderall bringing me to the top of the world then to the darkest caves now struggling to get by each day smoking so much. Taking low doses of Suboxone or Methadone with Benzodiazapenes to get by. Always low doses of…[Read more]

    • What helped me is learning from people who have stayed sober. That’s all my channel does but there are so many other resources. There’s support groups, books, therapy, tons of ways to find direction it’s all about the willingness to take action to search an online book and read some of it. A book I like is Brian Cuban’s “The Addicted Lawyer” also…[Read more]

      • I relate to you on many many opinions you have shared. You are more honest and real than others online. You give me hope.

    • You don’t sound pathetic! I wish I was as self aware as you are and I’m 33. You are going through a lot… the diagnosis and breakup. You are just trying to feel better and no one can fault you for that. Being around a family of addicts doesn’t help. Fellowship has really helped me. NAMI can get you in touch with therapists and psychiatrists in…[Read more]

  • Ms.Watermelon posted an update in the group Group logo of MethamphetamineMethamphetamine 3 days ago

    Hi, guys, I am new here. I have been using meth for 1 year and 4 months. I am trying to find my way to quit while I am preparing huge national board exams. You guys might look at me weird because I am a pharmacy school graduate. I have been watching Youtube videos to quit but knowing and doing is hard for me. I am planning type of person so I…[Read more]

    • Meth is a hard one, but what saved me were support groups especially in the beginning. I was uncomfortable af at first but it became something I enjoyed rather than loathed. It’s nice talking to people about what I’m going through without judgment, it’s a good daily reprieve from stressors and cravings. Beats staring at the walls or watching…[Read more]

  • I’ve been on a type of benzo because a bacteria affected my immune system and for almost two months my stomach hurt to the point I couldn’t walk. I was hospitalised and when I got out, I was prescribed Chlordiazepoxide which isn’t Xanax but is a type of benzo. I hate it, yet I crave it more and more. It makes me feel so numb I smoke weed to feel…[Read more]

    • best thing to do is get off it. benzo withdraw is one of the most fucked up things ive ever experienced, even the most mild symptoms are fucking gnarly. the deeper you get the harder it is to face reality.

      • Even if I’m prescribed 10mg a day? I know some people probably take way more, maybe I’m just sensitive to it? :/ I actually have to tell myself not to take 15+ and stick with what is prescribed…

        • only take as prescribed untill you run out if you must. if your seeing these tendencies in yourself stay away from benzos in general.

    • With Benzo withdrawal, you have to go to the hospital, even mild ones. You never know when/if a seizure will occur resulting in death or physical injury.

      • I still have to take the medication to heal completely, but isn’t weird to be prescribed benzo for 20 days and then to just stop it? Nothing says it’s addictive, I’ve been told to be cautious when I was taking Dilaudid yet nobody warned me about benzo…

        • Benzos are one of the most addictive drugs, up there with meth, crack, or heroin. It’s good you don’t enjoy the high so you’re unlikely to have psychological dependency, but if you have a physical dependency because they’re not tapering you off that’s bad medical practice and it should be brought up to your doctor. You can have a seizure from…[Read more]

  • CG Kid posted an update 3 days, 6 hours ago

    Shameless Protocol app was filmed by CNN for an upcoming documentary yesterday 🤗 will post YouTube link when it’s released.

  • New Haven Connecticut August 15th through the 16th 2018, mass casualty event blamed on K2. 76 individuals in a 24-hour time. Down needing medical assistance suspected on K2. I’m just interested In people’s thoughts on this, from what I’ve seen from news reports, it all happened on New Haven green

    • Scary stuff the “Grey Market” of drugs, I mean, we’re fighting the war on drugs with glocks and handcuffs and the research chemical scene has armed our enemy with a nuclear weapon. It won’t stop. And it won’t be long until there are fake adderall, vyvanse, oxy’s, etc. floating around with potentially lethal compounds that have no research on long…[Read more]

  • I don’t even know where to start. I felt so alone in this world. Like i was the only one suffering with a marijuana addiction. And the first post i see on here is someone with the same expierience. I am so grateful for Cg Kid and every addict out there that is genuinely trying to get sober! I have struggled with pot use for too long. I struggled t…[Read more]

    • You got this @jordanpaige it sucks he’s trying to control your addiction. Marijuana is one of those things, once I got past acute withdrawal I lost desire. It was really a psychological addiction only. Everyone’s different.

  • TD420 posted an update in the group Group logo of MarijuanaMarijuana 5 days, 1 hour ago

    Hi there, I’m 20 and the past 3 years I don’t really remember as I have been heavily abusing cannabis. I hate to say this as some people don’t take cannabis addiction seriously. I feel like Cannabis addiction is tough because there is less consequences from continuing your habit. Unlike other drugs cannabis cant kill you so you can keep abusing it…[Read more]

    • I have had the hardest time controlling cannabis compared to other substances because of the lack of consequences. There’s less to stop me from being on it all the time. When I’ve been drinking alcohol every day I could tell that it was problematic, but when using cannabis every day it has been easy to say “it’s just weed” and always be high. It…[Read more]

      • Exactly right dude you feel like it’s easier to justify but if its not working anymore then finding another way may be a good idea. For me at least it just had a sedating effect towards the end. I would feel happy doing nothing and my dead end job didn’t seem like a dead end job anymore. The truth is though if I don’t get in touch with how I’m…[Read more]

    • @TBD420 Hey man. I smoke pot daily . since 15. 33 noe heh.. I am on the fence. Ive found a way to use it when its appropriate from me. I still struggle w that but am finally trying to take charge of my minds clarity n smoking weed all day will deff hinder that so ive simmered down but when im off i smoke what i want unless plans r made to do…[Read more]

      • I think if you can find a balance that works well for you then that’s great, it’s what I want to do as well. I’m using this break from cannabis as a way to form better habits (Yoga, meditation, running etc) to deal with my mental health and to get all of the THC out of my fat tissue. once I have got through those 60 days I want to find a balance…[Read more]

    • You got this @td420 and I think it’s awesome what you’re doing. Cannabis is one of those things that when you have a low tolerance it’s easier to control because the psychedelic effects can be unpleasant for me. It’s an addiction that’s hard to get into, hard to get out of.

      • Thanks @philip your support means a lot, today has been especially tough because it’s the first Saturday without it and I’d usually be somewhere high in the clouds right now. It’s like once you’ve built up that THC in your fat tissues it becomes harder to give up. BTW I’m finding your site really helpful it’s good to get some extra support.

  • I admire addicts. In a world where everybody is waiting for some blind, random disaster, or some sudden disease, the addict has the comfort of knowing what will most likely wait for him down the road. He’s taken some control over his ultimate fate, and his addiction keeps the cause of death from being a total surprise. – Chuck Palahniuk

  • Recovery from addiction requires hard work, a proper attitude and learning skills to stay sober, not drinking alcohol or using other drugs. Successful drug recovery or alcohol recovery involves changing attitudes, acquiring knowledge, and developing skills to meet the many challenges of sobriety. —Dennis Daley

    • Love it 🙂

    • BIGTOEEE! Miss ya hope all is going good for yous!!

      • I’m still here guys. Just working my ass off. I think I’ve lost my Amy. She’s 2000 miles away from me in South Texas and I’m still in California. Sadly she relapsed two days after getting released from prison. This was about a month ago. I’m told that she’s gotten kicked out of our house by the landlord for her activities. I’m also told she’s wa…[Read more]

        • Im reading this w tears building and a heavy heart. Man u were so good to her. And i commend ur strength to walk away when it is completely necessary. Pls keep coming back for u. Its ur turn to lean on us as u have been a rock for me and many others in the past.. Love u man. Keep focused on work and YOUR future. I have been doing the same and…[Read more]

        • I completely feel your pain dude 😞

  • Everyone I need help. Me and my now ex boyfriend have been really close for about 4 years now. We’re so close we even call each other our soulmate haha. Well he’s always been into drugs as long as I’ve known him, starting out with weed. I first smoked with him and then almost 2 years later i try coke with him. Then after that I try everything from…[Read more]

    • Im gonna pm u!!

    • I was in the same situation, except I was from his perspective. Girlfriend I was with 8 years got sober, I got sober, I relapsed. What she ended up doing was ending the relationship which was the bottom that to this day I believe is what got me to eventually want sobriety for myself. At first, I got sober to get her back. She didn’t come back so I…[Read more]

      • I almost stopped talking to him completely, but I couldn’t do it. And now I keep on having panic attacks. I have at least 1 every day which is always when I wake up in the morning. I wanna use soooo bad its killing me, but I know I’d be a hypocrite and not a good example for him.

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